Venting thread that still excludes eddy (2)

[Travis B.]

All I am going to say about the last few days is things are getting somewhat scary now; even though things are better today

All I can think of saying in response, is a sad smiley . I hope you pull through!

I got my meds changed around some, and now have a prn to suppress these episodes when they happen. Hopefully this will work.

[Imralu]

I have three days off next week. But it's probably going to rain according to my weather app. There go my camping plans. I mean I could still try and go... it's just not going to be the nicest of days for it. Ugh. I guess Japan's weather, despite climate change, is still predictable enough that I should have known that it'd be the beginning of the rainy season. But I basically have to book days off a month in advance, so it's impossible to predict what the weather will be like. I guess I could like, go somewhere else? I dunno, I don't really have the impetus at the moment.

I would have gone camping last month but I'm still getting over this fucking shoulder injury I got back in fucking February skiing, and I've been going to the physio pretty much every week. I've finally got most of my range of motion back although it's not completely healed and the muscles are still all stiff.

I'd still go camping, making sure my tent is on a mound rather than a gully and making sure it's nicely waterproof ... the sound of rain falling on a tent is one of the best things ever. One of my ideal camping ideas is just in the rain, staying in the tent all day with a book. I lived in a tent in the backyard at my parent's place for about a year because I hated living with them ... and rainy days when I didn't have to do anything were the best.

Of course, it depends what you're looking forward to about camping ... if you're not weird like me, looking forward to the tent and to isolation more than actually being outside, it may not have the same appeal.

Travis, I missed the "a" before "prn" and I thought you were talking about porn. [XD]

[Pole, the]

Travis, I missed the "a" before "prn" and I thought you were talking about porn. [XD]

What if that's what he meant and he has only one porn?

[alice]

I did some guided deep relaxation the other afternoon, and I think I fell asleep. I'm not sure that's how it's meant to work.

[Travis B.]

Well, I tested the prn... and while it did all but keep the psychotic thoughts away, it had the major disadvantage of that it made me really sleepy (and by really sleepy I mean I was nodding off straight into dreams, then react to what I was dreaming as if it were real, like responding to things I dreamt people saying) for a long period - like I took it around 11 pm last night, and I was still very sleepy up until noon today. The problem with this is that it means I cannot take it at work, or even later in the day on a day before a work day.

[Risla]

I did some guided deep relaxation the other afternoon, and I think I fell asleep. I'm not sure that's how it's meant to work.

I dunno, sounds pretty relaxed to me!

[alice]

I did some guided deep relaxation the other afternoon, and I think I fell asleep. I'm not sure that's how it's meant to work.

I dunno, sounds pretty relaxed to me!

Yes, but there's a difference between feeling nice and relaxed, and not being conscious enough to be able to. I didn't actually want to fall asleep.

[Vijay]

I guess I kind of know the feeling. Whenever I visited my grandmother in India, I always had to try really hard not to fall asleep during evening prayers (especially because they were shortly before bedtime).

[Risla]

Life was much better before I randomly developed severe anxiety a few months ago. Spinning yarn helps a LOT, but I can't do that at work, so even though I like my job it's making me miserable because I have a spectacular amount of nervous energy and can't burn it off so it just builds up and builds up and leaves me on the verge of a panic attack every day.

[alice]

Life was much better before I randomly developed severe anxiety a few months ago. Spinning yarn helps a LOT, but I can't do that at work, so even though I like my job it's making me miserable because I have a spectacular amount of nervous energy and can't burn it off so it just builds up and builds up and leaves me on the verge of a panic attack every day.

I know exactly what that's like, because I've had it too. The good news is that you can get rid of it.

[jal]

I'm trying to do some "long" distance running, but my body doesn't like it. Got all kind of muscle and joint problems. Nothing serious, but annoying nonetheless. It's an uphill battle...


JAL

[Risla]

Well. After a colonoscopy (technically an ileoscopy, actually) I just got a tentative diagnosis of Crohn's Disease (to be confirmed in two weeks when the biopsy comes back). The idea of "what if I have Crohn's" has been haunting my nightmares for years. When I had ulcerative colitis (or, I guess, what they thought was UC), I was incredibly sick, and the idea of that happening again…

Currently in shock.

[Travis B.]

Been getting a lot of thought broadcasting lately, and it's gone from simply thinking that I was speaking my inner self-talk aloud and people could hear it when in fact I was not speaking at all, even when I specifically checked to make sure I was not actually talking to myself, to thinking that my head was permeable to my thoughts and hence I was radiating my thoughts, self-talk or not, for everyone anywhere nearby to pick up. One way or another, this is somewhat alarming.

[linguoboy]

Well. After a colonoscopy (technically an ileoscopy, actually) I just got a tentative diagnosis of Crohn's Disease (to be confirmed in two weeks when the biopsy comes back). The idea of "what if I have Crohn's" has been haunting my nightmares for years. When I had ulcerative colitis (or, I guess, what they thought was UC), I was incredibly sick, and the idea of that happening again…

I am really sorry, Risla. Crohn's disease sucks.

[Travis B.]

Well. After a colonoscopy (technically an ileoscopy, actually) I just got a tentative diagnosis of Crohn's Disease (to be confirmed in two weeks when the biopsy comes back). The idea of "what if I have Crohn's" has been haunting my nightmares for years. When I had ulcerative colitis (or, I guess, what they thought was UC), I was incredibly sick, and the idea of that happening again…

Currently in shock.

I'm sorry. I don't know much about inflammatory bowel diseases beyond what is indicated by the term itself, but one way or another they have got to suck.

[Viktor77]

Why is the one pre-Euro banknote that I've always wanted to own cost 200$ more than every other banknote in its series? I can buy every other denomination for cheap on eBay but this one 1000 Austrian schilling featuring Schrodinger has gone for much more for years and years. I've wanted it for over a decade now. I come back every few years to see if it's finally gone down in price and it never does.

The only other note I've always wanted is the 250 Dutch guilder. Once again it retains its value year after year going for near 200$ for well circulated notes. Why are high denominations of these pre-Euro currencies retaining value? These notes are only from the 80s.... Is it circulation volume alone? Is there some massive market in Europe for these notes?

*Edit* So I just found out that in the case of guilder notes they are still exchangeable. I thought this was no longer the case but apparently it is at one bank in Amsterdam, until 2032. I don't know if that goes the same for Austria but that partially explains the guilder price since 250 guilder is about 114$.

[alice]

Fingers crossed for you, Risla.

[Viktor77]

Well. After a colonoscopy (technically an ileoscopy, actually) I just got a tentative diagnosis of Crohn's Disease (to be confirmed in two weeks when the biopsy comes back). The idea of "what if I have Crohn's" has been haunting my nightmares for years. When I had ulcerative colitis (or, I guess, what they thought was UC), I was incredibly sick, and the idea of that happening again…

Currently in shock.

I'm sorry. I don't know much about inflammatory bowel diseases beyond what is indicated by the term itself, but one way or another they have got to suck.

I didn't see your post before, Risla. I'm sorry. Crohn's sucks. My FIL has had it for years and his medicine is very expensive and the side effects are not fun. Fortunately, he has managed for years now though his health has begun to deteriorate over the past year or so. I'm always worried my husband will get it since it's passed genetically.

[hwhatting]

Why is the one pre-Euro banknote that I've always wanted to own cost 200$ more than every other banknote in its series? I can buy every other denomination for cheap on eBay but this one 1000 Austrian schilling featuring Schrodinger has gone for much more for years and years. I've wanted it for over a decade now. I come back every few years to see if it's finally gone down in price and it never does.

The only other note I've always wanted is the 250 Dutch guilder. Once again it retains its value year after year going for near 200$ for well circulated notes. Why are high denominations of these pre-Euro currencies retaining value? These notes are only from the 80s.... Is it circulation volume alone? Is there some massive market in Europe for these notes?

*Edit* So I just found out that in the case of guilder notes they are still exchangeable. I thought this was no longer the case but apparently it is at one bank in Amsterdam, until 2032. I don't know if that goes the same for Austria but that partially explains the guilder price since 250 guilder is about 114$.

I assume that anyone who wanted to exchange high-denomination notes did so around the time the Euro was introduced (as opposed to coins, which many people kept out of nostalgia or laziness). So the people still having them tend to be collectors*1), who normally only sell when they get a better price than they paid themselves. 1000 Schillings = ca. 140 DM = ca. 70 €, so if the price is more than 200$ per note now, that means collectors are sitting on them.
*1) There were also people keeping DM notes out of paranoia that the Euro would quickly become inflationary and / or in the hope of a quick abandonment of that experiment, but I assume such people are now vanishingly rare. There may also still be notes in some old people's mattresses, but I don't know how many of those will ever come to the market.

@ Risla: I hope you'll find effective treatment!

[vampireshark]

Why is the one pre-Euro banknote that I've always wanted to own cost 200$ more than every other banknote in its series? I can buy every other denomination for cheap on eBay but this one 1000 Austrian schilling featuring Schrodinger has gone for much more for years and years. I've wanted it for over a decade now. I come back every few years to see if it's finally gone down in price and it never does.

The only other note I've always wanted is the 250 Dutch guilder. Once again it retains its value year after year going for near 200$ for well circulated notes. Why are high denominations of these pre-Euro currencies retaining value? These notes are only from the 80s.... Is it circulation volume alone? Is there some massive market in Europe for these notes?

*Edit* So I just found out that in the case of guilder notes they are still exchangeable. I thought this was no longer the case but apparently it is at one bank in Amsterdam, until 2032. I don't know if that goes the same for Austria but that partially explains the guilder price since 250 guilder is about 114$.

I assume that anyone who wanted to exchange high-denomination notes did so around the time the Euro was introduced (as opposed to coins, which many people kept out of nostalgia or laziness). So the people still having them tend to be collectors*1), who normally only sell when they get a better price than they paid themselves. 1000 Schillings = ca. 140 DM = ca. 70 €, so if the price is more than 200$ per note now, that means collectors are sitting on them.
*1) There were also people keeping DM notes out of paranoia that the Euro would quickly become inflationary and / or in the hope of a quick abandonment of that experiment, but I assume such people are now vanishingly rare. There may also still be notes in some old people's mattresses, but I don't know how many of those will ever come to the market.

Austrian Schilling notes are indefinitely convertible if they were legal tender at the time the Euro was introduced, with all other Schilling notes convertible for 20 years following their withdrawal. The Schrödinger 1000-Schilling note was withdrawn in April 1998, so it's convertible until April 2018.

(Notably, Germany also will convert Deutsche Marks indefinitely and Belgium will perpetually redeem Belgian franc banknotes, but most other currencies do have limited exchange windows... for example, in France, the window expired for all francs in 2012.)

That said, I agree with hwatting's assessment: the only people who probably still have the notes are collectors and people who've forgotten about them in mattresses. Some might come out of the mattresses when estates are being cleaned out, for example.

[Vijay]

While most people have been very nice to me lately, some people have been saying and doing highly inconsiderate things, and the most bizarre part to me is that they are all happening at the same time. Some of these people doing/saying inconsiderate things are ironically also part of the set of people who have been very nice to me.

[Ryusenshi]

I had a neat idea for a hand-made guitar effect, bought some parts... then realized that it can't work as I expected.

[Imralu]

The hunt for a new flatmate plus having a crush on a very friendly probably-straight guy is making my emotions roller-coaster. We took ages to decide on a new flatmate - then he had already found a flat. We decided yes on a new one today (after I'd made contact with my father again to make it possible) and I went to tell him sooner rather than later and he said he'd let us know by tomorrow. And my brain decides to take this and make it about me being worthless and why would I even think anyone would want to live with me or be interested in me. I just want to sleep but when I do I have these mundane dreams that then I mix up with reality and I struggle to remember what's real. I want to masturbate but I feel bad about myself and that's not helping. I want to learn more Swahili but I barely have the energy to sit up.

[alynnidalar]

Apparently my cousin and her baby are in hiding from her husband.

I don't have any details, but I am so scared for her right now. They live in another country, so there's literally nothing I can do for her other than pray, but I am so furious on her behalf and I just wish I could do something.

I would never say this to her parents/siblings/her, obviously, and I'm definitely not at ALL blaming her (how could she have known??), but I've never liked her husband. I met him when I was a kid and I didn't like him then, and I didn't like him when I met him again later in life, and I didn't like him when they got married. He's not someone I've ever known closely or anything, just I never thought much of his personality. Unfortunately, I guess I was right to dislike him. I wish I hadn't been.

To make things even scarier... another of my cousins (the first cousin's sister, actually) is married to this creep's brother. He always seemed more decent. I very much pray this is true.

[Travis B.]

My grandmother died last Saturday. We weren't very close or anything, and I only feel a bit glum about it at most, but I almost feel bad for not really feeling much about it in the first place. (This is typical of me when people I know die; the only one that I actually really felt much about was when a good friend of mine from high school killed himself.)