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I have now been gripped with the fear that I have schizophrenia like my brother. Again. Now I'm losing my fucking mind over the fact that I sometimes spontaneously say word salad sentences to myself to calm myself down (I don't really know how to explain it, these sentences are grammatically correct and everything but they make zero sense logically). That and my paranoia...which is the root of all this.

Sigh.

Why the fuck couldn't I have been normal? Why did I have to be born as a half-black possibly-schizophrenic ADHD bisexual with an utterly fucked up sexuality, massive anxiety issues, a complete lack of drive and ability to manage time, and social awkwardness? If there is a God then that worthless fuckhead specifically designed me to be fucked up. And there's no way some benevolent god would design someone just to make them suffer. No wonder I'm an atheist.

God dammit, the summer began and I'm being a depressed and paranoid idiot. I need to take up a hobby, write, do something instead of worrying whether or not I'm gonna lose my mind in two years.

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Nūdhrēmnāva naraśva, dṛk śraṣrāsit nūdhrēmanīṣṣ iźdatīyyīm woḥīm madhēyyaṣṣi.
satisfaction-DEF.SG-LOC live.PERFECTIVE-1P.INCL but work-DEF.SG-PRIV satisfaction-DEF.PL.NOM weakeness-DEF.PL-DAT only lead-FUT-3P

I recommend, sans irony or sarcasm or anything, running. It has done wonders for me when I've been in a bad place emotionally. Plus, it has been proven to be about as effective at depression and other stuff as meds, and it won't kill your boners.

It's quite likely lack of exercise is to blame for a lot of mental health stuff: we're savanna animals, runners and hunters and fleers, we're i'll equipped to be the sit-every-day-ers we've become.

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I actually love to run and walk around and frequently do it whenever I can. During my college classes I'd just walk and run around the campus for like 2 hours a day.

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Nūdhrēmnāva naraśva, dṛk śraṣrāsit nūdhrēmanīṣṣ iźdatīyyīm woḥīm madhēyyaṣṣi.
satisfaction-DEF.SG-LOC live.PERFECTIVE-1P.INCL but work-DEF.SG-PRIV satisfaction-DEF.PL.NOM weakeness-DEF.PL-DAT only lead-FUT-3P

Chagen: *hugs*

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I like working on conlangs while I'm at the coffee shop, and I've usually spent about 2 hours per visit doing that, but since this shop changed over to a new wi-fi service, I cannot get Wikipedia to load properly, which I use for minor research while I'm working on my conlangs.

I'm not sure how to fix the problem, there doesn't seem to be a similar issue reported on help forums anywhere.

At first the issue affected the auto-popup login window, and it would take at least 10 minutes or more to finally log on. That particular issue seems fixed now, but I just can't use Wikipedia. It'll sometimes load certain pages, but most of the time they are all formatted wrong, or it just gives up trying to reach Wikipedia at all.

Could this be an issue with my settings? I know my computer has IPv6 set up, and maybe that's the issue? The wifi router here is 802.11g, so it's possible that it doesn't load properly because it's an older standard?

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Nōn quālibet inīquā cupiditāte illectus hoc agō
Yo te pongo en tu lugar...
Taisc mach Daró

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you mean getting all tired and sweaty, or does it hurt your joints and stuff ?

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I get sick pretty often. It's rarely serious, but it still means I feel shitty for a couple of days. I call in sick for a day or two whenever it happens. I used to be self-employed, so I didn't have this luxury before. The HR department of my current employer, however, seems to think I call in sick too often, because today they sent a doctor to my house to check if I was actually sick, at a time I was not actually supposed to work yet. That's the second time they've done that. I was actually in the waiting room of my own doctor, so now I have to go over to the doctor my work sent tonight to have him confirm that I'm actually sick, even though my own doctor came to that conclusion less than an hour ago.

I was planning to only stay home today and go back to work after the weekend, but because the incredible confidence my company's HR department has in me, I might call my doctor on Monday and say that things haven't improved. I'm sure they'll send another doctor to check on me.

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Well, only running can solve that problem. your normal male can go from can't run a kilometer to half a marathon no problem in about a year, give or take. And first-day-of-running-in-years tired is a lot less pelasant than been-running-for-two-months tired.

it does get better, corny as it sounds XD

I really should start running again, myself.

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I just hate being sweaty.

baw chika waw waaaaw

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getting sweaty is the entire point if running you lazy buns !

I myself don't do any firm of sports. I realize this is bad, and any reason not to is an excuse, but still I have good excuses I think.

1. Running wi ll greatly hurt my knee joints. I do not think it's natural for those little knees to carry something my weight while running on an asphalt surface.
2. Cycling is something I enjoy, but I would need to cycle enormous distances in order to have enough exercise.
3. swimming I also enjoy but it is expensive
4. I could get a university sports card but it ids still expensive and I loathe going to the gym.

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But the river tripped on her by and by, lapping
as though her heart was brook: Why, why, why! Weh, O weh
I'se so silly to be flowing but I no canna stay!

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Okay it's not the entire point but it's certainly an important point.

I have never met anyone for who sweating was any part of the point of exercise. Most people view it as an unavoidable but undesirable side-effect. Maybe things are different in the Netherlands, which is apparently a fascinating country with a very... specific... culture, but in the UK there is actually widespread use of 'anti-perspirant' products to reduce sweating. In the UK, the smell and appearance of sweat, and indications of sweating (stains on clothing, for example), are typically regarded as unpleasant and unsociable, rather than as things to be sought after. But certainly cultures do differ from one another in many ways.

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But the river tripped on her by and by, lapping
as though her heart was brook: Why, why, why! Weh, O weh
I'se so silly to be flowing but I no canna stay!

Can we have someone else from the Netherlands to comment?

dude do you even biology? if you don't sweat when exercising do you have any idea what happens ?

evidently nothing. I just worked out some and didn't break a sweat: it helps when it's chill out. ignorance is more graceful when it's not painted as arrogant know-it-all-ness, man. for sirius.

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— o noth sidiritt Tormiott