Rafiki yangu bado anakaa chumbani mwangu. Leo rafiki yangu mmoja wa karibu kalewa na amekuwa akizungumza kuhusu kujiua. Nilimpigia simu tukaongea lakini simu zangu zilikatika na sasa siwezi kumpigia.
Jumatatu nilikuwa ndani ya ubani nikaona mwanaume mmoja aliyevutia sana. Alikuwa akiniangalia-angalia akitazama mwili wangu na hasa eneo langu la kaptura. Nilikuwa na hakiki kwamba alinitaka na tulitazamana usoni. Kisha nilifikiri kwamba labda ni mtego tu na alitaka kunipigapiga kwa sababu mimi ni shoga. Niliogopa mno nisimtabasamie ingawa nilitaka. Nilipotoka ubani, aliniinulia nyusi kana kwamba aliniuliza kama yeye pia atoke au asitoke. Sikuwa na ujasiri wa kufanya lolote. Nilipoenda zangu, nilipatwa na hali ya wasiwasi. Halafu nilipata ujumbe usio mzuri kutoka kwa rafiki wa rafiki yangu akisema kwamba hataki kutusaidia mimi wala rafiki yangu anayeishi pamoja nami. Ninatoka basi bila kujua nilikuwa wapi, nikaketi akaanza kulia.
English soon. Sleep now.
EDIT: I was in quite a state when I wrote that and wanted to vent but I didn't go to the venting thread because I didn't want to vent in English. I considered deleting it just now, but I won't. Here's the translation:
My friend is still staying in my room. Today a close friend of mine is drunk and has been talking about suicide. I called him and we talked but my phone cut out and now I can't call him.
On Monday I was in the U-Bahn and I saw a really attractive guy. He was staring at me, looking at my body and in particular my shorts area. I was sure that he wanted me and we made eye contact. Then I thought that maybe it's a trap and he wanted to beat me up for being gay. I was too scared to smile at him even though I wanted to. When I got off the U-Bahn, he raised his eyebrows at me like he was asking me if he should also get off or not. I didn't have the courage to do anything. As I went my way, I got hit by anxiety. Then I got a message that wasn't very good from a friend of a friend of mine saying that he didn't want to help me or my friend who's living with me. I get off [sic. should have been nilitoka "got off") the bus without knowing where I was and sat down and started to cry.
Glossing Abbreviations: COMP = comparative, C = , ACS / ICS = , GDV = , SPEC / NSPC = specific / non-specific
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