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Boss made an extremely inappropriate remark to a coworker of mine in front of everyone in the room (almost the entire lab group). Lots of awkwardness ensued, especially since he's the boss and calling him out is probably a horrible idea...

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Mybe if you all agree to call him out together? That way it won't be blamed on a single person.

I swear, every day this week has felt like it should have been Friday but wasn't.

I had a migraine last weekend. I used to only get an aura (scintillating scotoma) ... sometimes big enough to make me mostly blind for half-an-hour or so and then basically no headache. A doctor told me it was a migraine aura when I was younger, and reading about it, it's quite common for young men to get migraines with a noticeable aura but no noticeable headache. As I've gotten older and started to move out of the "young man" category, the headaches have started coming with them. Boo! I mean, it's kind of reassuring that they are actually migraines and not just random spells of blindness. It's always just been a kind of extremely sensitive head for a couple of days ... and when I'm not bending over quickly, shaking my head or coughing, I usually forget (which leads to me doing it again) ... but last weekend was the first time I've had one where I could feel the headache as a constant presence. It wasn't agonising or anything, but then the aura started coming back (which is another development in the last couple of years) and I was like "Well, I can't even lie here and watch a movie or something so, I guess I'll just sleep."

I felt groggy for days. My head was tender for about three days after the headache stopped and once I was back to normal, my sleep cycle was really thrown off ... like, I keep waking up after three hours now but not having the energy to do anything. I didn't manage to make it to work at all this week until Friday afternoon ... I have too much freedom and it's bad for me. I had to make myself go. I'm glad I went because the longer I don't go, the harder it gets to go.

So, I got to work and I was researching, reading stuff and trying to find something to write about but my brain was just full of negativity and I just couldn't stomach the idea of writing anything and I started and stopped and deleted and started something else several times. I started to get anxiety, plus tiredness and ... like, if I was a little kid, I would have been playing up to the point that a parent would say angrily "You need a nap, young man!" but I'm an adult, almost middle-aged man. My anxiety got to the point where I had to go to the toilet and when I finished I felt like I had to go back again. By this stage I was the only one in the office. At some point, I just decided to go home while it was still light. I didn't finish my article (in theory I'll finish it at home over the weekend ... but I have literally never done that when that's been my plan), I decided to take the tram home ... it's quite a long, slow trip that does a big loop from near my work, swings out wide and then leaves me on the other side of the river with a reasonable walk home. Sometimes it's more restful than the much quicker U-Bahn-bus-combo, but it was full of people and little kids running up and down and one making weird noise right behind me ... and where the tram drops me off is quite a chaotic, loud nightlife area and, being Friday night, that was kind of hectic too and I just got so peopled out. I knew I didn't have any food at home, so I went to the supermarket and I literally hated the idea of eating anything my brain suggested and in the end I just bought a litre of ice cream ... and that's my dinner ... even though I'm trying to cut down on sugar because I'm getting a bit fat and it's also apparently not great for mental health. Better than just not eating I guess.

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Sorry to hear that Imralu. I got those scintillating scotoma recently, when at work. First I thought that I looked too long in a bright light, but later it got bigger with those weird up-and-down moving pointy things. Twice that day, but never before or since. Weird. Luckily it didn't blind me.

(Somehow I didn't receive any notifications from this thread anymore, and kinda forgot about it.)

JAL

Today, I went to work, where two of my colleagues (one of them did this yesterday, not today) behaved passive-aggressively towards me because I asked them five minutes in advance whether they would take something instead of waiting for them to take it two or three minutes in advance. Then I came back home and saw someone accuse me of giving her suicidal thoughts.

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ìtsanso, God In The Mountain, may our names inspire the deepest feelings of fear in urkos and all his ilk, for we have saved another man from his lies! I welcome back to the feast hall kal, who will never gamble again! May the eleven gods bless him!

That's what happened with me too.

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ìtsanso, God In The Mountain, may our names inspire the deepest feelings of fear in urkos and all his ilk, for we have saved another man from his lies! I welcome back to the feast hall kal, who will never gamble again! May the eleven gods bless him!

I told her she needs to see a psychiatrist because I really don't know what else I can tell her and I can't believe I caused her to feel suicidal all by myself. She's been treating me pretty badly over the past few months, so I have trouble feeling sympathetic.

With me it seemed to be something she had resolved a while before she told me about it. It's complicated because she constantly switched between friendly and hostile behavior over a many year period. We barely see each other now beyond the school bus since we take the same one but we have mutual friends and I ask them how she's doing occasionally.

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ìtsanso, God In The Mountain, may our names inspire the deepest feelings of fear in urkos and all his ilk, for we have saved another man from his lies! I welcome back to the feast hall kal, who will never gamble again! May the eleven gods bless him!

I have been guilt-tripped so many times I just don't have patience for it anymore.

EDIT: I'm also especially afraid of saying anything more than I already have to her because I never have any idea how she'll interpret my words. Suppose I were to try and reach out to her; how do I know it would not only make her feel worse?

EDIT2: Perhaps I should also point out that this is not the first time someone has emotionally told me they were thinking of committing suicide. Several times when my mom got into an argument with my dad, she would tell me things like "I hope I have an accident [while driving on the road] so I'll die" even though she never had any intention of doing anything like that. She just said things like that to make me feel bad and side with her against my dad. So forgive me if I'm not entirely sure she isn't just using a cheap emotional trick to try and stifle discussion.

L2 Learners of English: Please read this entire atrociously-written paragraph and point out all my errors.
Also L2 Learners of English: I know you just told me that no native speakers say this, but I'm going to argue that not only is it not wrong to say this but also this is superior to what you said native speakers actually do say.

there's nowhere around here that has decent takeout breakfast

breakfast is important. fuck to capitalism. i demand fully automated luxury breakfast

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