I went and drank too much again last night, and have a big hole in my memory before waking up outside Seibu-Tachikawa station, in deepest darkest western tama... of all the fucking stations to end up in I managed to pick one that is in the middle of fucking nowhere. It wasn't quite as bad as the time when I woke up in Kawagoe, to be fair, although this time it might have been easier for me if I had woken up there because at least I know where to find an internet café in Kawagoe. As it happens I decided that I'd go for a walk down towards the JR line, to Nakagami station, and then fell asleep on the pavement outside there instead. And then I had a half-an-hour walk home from Kichijoji station rather than a 10 minute walk from Kami-shakujii station. It's all getting a bit confusing... anyway, it's kind of annoying that I can't remember leaving the bar, although I don't think anything untoward happened, or I hope not. I'm just getting a bit worried, because while in general getting lost like that is a bit stressful and scary while it's happening, there's part of me that thinks it's all just a bit of an adventure and wants to do it again.
In fact there was definitely a part of me yesterday that kinda thought it wouldn't be so
bad if I accidentally forgot to get off at my own stop.
Also what's very annoying is that my contingency plan to stop this happening was supposed to be to get the local train instead of the express, because the local trains late at night terminate at my stop, but I think I worked out via the timetable that I just happened
to pick the last train that terminates at Haijima instead. Argh!
I don't know why I feel that I need to do stupid things to have an adventure of sorts, though. I guess it's because I'm a bit horny but I have very little confidence around new people that I meet in bars, such as last night, so I feel a bit down because of that. Plus I've given up on that guy I mentioned before who's not been replying to my texts (I haven't seen him in 4 weeks now), which is still deflating me a bit.